July 31
You say goodbye. and i say hello

This is my promise.

We were meant to be, but we lost it.

"You were everything, Everything that i wanted, We were meant to be supposed to be, But we lost it, All of the memories so close to me, Just fade away, All this time you were pretending, So much for my happy ending"

"It's a love story, baby just say yes"

"Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone, I keep waiting for you but you never come, Is this in my head, I don't know what to think, He knealt to the ground and pulled out a ring, And said: Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone, I love you and that's all I really know, I talked to your dad go pick out a white dress, It's a love story baby just say yes"

Love your beloved one

Mama / papa selalu cerewet

Pernah kita ngomelin dia? Pernah!

Pernah kita cuekin dia? Pernah!

Pernah kita mikir apa yang dia pikirkan? Nggak!

Sebenarnya apa yang dia fikirkan? Takut

Takut ga bisa liat kita senyum, nangis atau ketawa lagi. Takut ga bisa ngajar kita lagi. Semua itu karena waktu dia singkat..............

Saat mama / papa menutup mata, ga akan lagi ada yang cerewet. Saat kita nangis manggil-manggil dia, apa yang dia bales? 'Dia cuma diam'

Tapi bayangannya dia tetep disamping kita dan berkata:

'Anakku jangan menangis. Mama / papa masih disini. Mama / papa masih sayang kamu'

Pas gue baca bm ini dari temen gue. Gue langsung tersentak hatinya. Dan gue bakal janji, gue gak bakal bentak mama papa lagi pas keadaan gue lagi kesel atau enggak. Karena kalo mereka udah enggak ada, kita bakal nyesel untuk selamanya.

Jadi intinya cintailah orang-orang yang kalian cintai selagi mereka masih disamping kalian. Karena kalau mereka udah pergi kita bakal nyesel untuk selama-lamanya.

i love you mom

Mama. Sosok yang bisa dibilang orang yang paling sabar di dunia. Sabar ngadepin aku, sabar ngadepin semua masalah yang dia hadapi. Aku tau kok selama ini aku itu bukan anak yang baik banget buat mama. Tapi pasti mama slalu bilang 'kamu itu yang terbaik buat mama...' Pas aku lagi sakit, pasti mama slalu nanya 'mau makan apa? nanti mama beliin deh' Waktu itu inget banget, gue lagi pengen bubur trus pas bangun-bangun nyokap kok gak ada, gue tanya mbak gue katanya nyokap lagi pergi beli bubur buat gue :') Trus selama ini kalo mama nyuruh aku tolong sesuatu pasti aku gak sabaran, pengennya cepet selesai ngebantuinnya padahal mama kalo bantuin aku sabaaaaar banget. Trus kalo misalnya mau pergi-pergi, aku paling ribet sama baju, mama jadi stres juga mikirin aku mau pake baju apa.

Mama slalu ada disamping aku padahal aku jarang ada di samping dia. Mama juga bela-belain anter jemput aku padahal aku bisa pake jemputan. Mama juga bela-belain nonton bareng sama aku gara-gara yang lain udh pada nonton padahal mama lagi sakit. Mama juga pernah bela-belain beli baju batik buat aku sampe jadi sakit gara-gara nyari kemana-mana gak ada.

Mama sangat berjasa buatku. Gue juga kebayang gimana rasa sakitnya nyokap gue saat melahirkan gue. Gimana sedihnya nyokap gue kalo gue sekalinya bentak dia. Gimana perihnya hati dia kalo gue ngelawan dia. Jadi gak cuma pas hari ibu aja gue bakal ucapin ini, I LOVE YOU MOM walaupun kadang kadang aku suka nganggep mama orangnya cerewet banget, over protective tapi aku tau kok itu juga nantinya buat kebaikan siapa, gue juga kan? jadi aku bilang aku cinta sama mama selamanya sepanjang masa

Mama, you know i love you 

Mama, you're the queen of my heart

Your love is like tears from the stars

Mama, i just want you to know

Loving you is like food to my soul 

my happy ending - avril lavigne

Oh, oh, oh, oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh

Lets talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh, oh, oh, oh
So much for my happy ending
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they

But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the stuff that you do?
You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of our memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

He was everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending

You were everything, everything
That I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be
But we lost it
All of the memories so close to me
Just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
Oh, oh, oh, oh
So much for my happy ending
oh oh oh oh
So much for my happy ending


we were meant to be, supposed to be. But we lost it................... but i don't mind because all of this so much for my happy ending :')

happy birthday DAD!

Sebenernya papa ulang tahun tanggal 21 juli. Tapi gue baru ngepost sekarang. Soalnya baru buka blog hari ini. So i just wanna say Happy Birthday DADDY! wish you all the very best and hope you have a blast day. semoga papa panjang umur, sehat selalu, dan bisa dampingin aku nanti graduation SMA, kuliah dan aku nikah nanti. dan awet, slalu romantis sama mama hehehe pokoknya wish you all the very best dad, You are the greatest dad ever :D

1st Day To Be 10th Grader

Hari selesai MOS dan hari pertama gue resmi menjadi anak 1 sma. seneng, deg-degan & masih nyesek karena gue belom bisa ngelepasin masa masa smp. gue deg-degan karena sepanjang MOS gue belom tau gue bakal sekelas sama siapa nantinya. dan jeng jeng jeng deg-degan gue terbayar sudah karena pas pengumuman kelas gue dikelas 10 Alder! gue sekelas sama Desty, Astrid, Lala, Della, Dewangga sama Raka. kalo anak barunya gue sekelas sama temen sd gue Agya. yang gue tau dan kenal kalo anak baru cuma dia. tapi gue gak sekelas sama Dafni & Vicky.........

but still gue belom menemukan anak-anak yang seru (kecuali anak2 lama) di Alder. mungkin masih baru kali ya jadi masih pada malu-malu gitu. mudah2an Alder bisa kompak dan seru ya anak-anaknya aminnnnn :D

I Miss 9 Ning Yang :')

MOS. adalah hari yang paling gue tunggu tunggu dan yang paling bikin deg-degan. gue sempet gak bisa tidur karena mikirin MOS. gue mikir, nanti gue bakal diapain ya sama kakak-kakak kelas. walaupun gue anak lama dan ada sebagian kakak kelas yang gue kenal tapi tetep aja bikin deg-degan. dan ketika menginjakkan kaki di global, ketemu sebagian anak-anak lama, gue jadi kangen pas jaman2 smp. gue kangen pas kelas 9, kita dekor kelas, pas performance dan banyak hal lainnya yang gak bisa gue lupain. pas graduation, gue bayangin nantinya di sma gue gak bakal bisa ketemu lagi anak-anak gokil dan seru kayak gini. pasti bakal beda banget rasanya. pas MOS gue udah pake baju sma, gue bayangin kapan ya gue bakal pake seragam smp lagi. gue kangen rok smp gue. pas pengenalan guru-guru smp dan sma, gue ngeliat guru-guru smp dan gue berpikir 'gue gak bakal ketemu sama mereka lagi, diajar sama mereka lagi....'. jadi gue mau bilang makasih ya Thirdreich yang selama ini udah klop bangeeet (apalagi pas malam bersama sembilan), makasih udah jadi temen disaat suka dan duka, makasih juga udah bikin kenangan yang gak bakal terlupakan.

so i just wanna say i miss you THIRDREICH, i miss you 9 NY and i always miss you all JHS teachers especially 4 class coordinator Ms. Siang, Ms. Wiwin, Mr. Adi and Mr. Habib. i'm gonna miss you forever and always. Goodbye JHS Global Mandiri :(